Nothing

There is nothing to do. Not that I don't know what I want its that I can't have what I want and I can't do what I want. I have to try and want things I don't want and it is so sickening. It is not living it is going through the motions of living. I have to try and want new thing because the things I want wont have me. Its like being out cast from your family. Its explainable. I don't know where to go and it makes me furious then sad then depressed then raging. I feel the constant need to do everything but none of it is any more than a moment to be occupied. At the moment I feel like everything. I am mad sad depressed and overwhelmed. I HATE being alone.